A life unloved, misunderstood

No one’s life is perfect. There will always be an aspect where we are unloved. Mine started before I was born. Unwanted, yet still born into this world underweight and a problem or two.

Still... life goes on, and I’m now an adult. My way there had its problems like most people. Problems through childhood and adolescence were numerable. My problem was this... I was always misunderstood.

I grew up in a family where grades in school, were the only thing on my parents mind. They worked hard to make a living, provided a roof over my head and food to eat, yet they missed an important necessity, communication.

I grew up, through my childhood, with only one thing taught, school. Memorising the things taught in school was all I was ever taught. However... there was an aspect I could not be taught that was vital to me, communication.

My parents working most of the time, left little time to talk with me, except for how were my grades. I grew up through childhood quite lonely, always misunderstood. My parents would often make jokes about me unable to speak in my native language, further fuelling rage into the picture, I still to this day, am not fluent in speaking my native language.

I grew up in school without many friends, always sitting in the corner alone, eating my lunch. Unable to speak to those around me, unable to communicate, I grew up lonely as a child.

My primary school years were with no one I could really call a friend. My first year of high school was pretty much the same although, through my adolescence and rebellion to my parents, gained me a friend or two. I now had my own personality, something I liked, something to talk about.

By year nine I had gained a best friend, who would always make time at high school pass by without a hitch. By the end of high school I had many friends. Still... something was still missing.

I’ve never felt intimate love from another. I continued life as instructed, continued to be unloved and misunderstood. It was only about 9 months ago that I had met this girl who would fill this missing hole in my heart, I've so longed for in my life.

This girl is special to me. She filled the hole in my heart that was full of loneliness. She gave me courage to speak, courage to live.

All my life, I’ve been misunderstood... but this girl sees the truth in me. A pain I’ve held for so long vanished, with one look into her beautiful eyes, I've always longed for.

I can tell her everything about me, and she’ll always listen. I lived a life unloved, misunderstood, but not anymore. Since the day I met her she’s been an angel to me, who understands me.